BY NOW

Who would I be by now
if I’d been myself
all along?
Who would I be by now
if I hadn’t tried
so hard to be
everybody else?
Who would I be by now
if I’d only learned
to love myself?

Who would I be?
Would I be somebody
you might admire?
Would I be
potentially
somebody
you could desire?

Who would I be by now
or would I have
become myself anyhow?

Who would I be
if I hadn’t loved somebody
so hopelessly?
Who would I be
if lust wasn’t always met
so eagerly?
Who would I be
if I’d only said something
when I felt everything?

Who would I be by now?
Who should I be?

And who would you be,
my dear, if you
had never met me?
And just let me be.
Nothing it seems.
Nothing helps me be me.

written on 08/30/2016 by: Matt Kane